Monthly Archives: August 2015

We need to go, go, go!



When I first started meditating, I would feel very anxious…almost like I wanted to jump right out of my skin. My thoughts were all over the place and I kept thinking about all the things I needed to accomplish that day. It would take some patience on my part and the last person I had patience with was myself! Then I would tell myself that the next 20 minutes was a “special time” for me. I didn’t have to be anywhere, or do anything. I started noticing the anxiousness “taking a back seat” to the quiet. Hey! there’s no threat here!

We all get so wrapped up in our daily activities…all the things that need to get done in the next few hours. It took a little practice and self talk to convince myself that this 20 minute quiet time was “ok”. So many people are uncomfortable with just sitting quietly with themselves. We have gotten so used to being distracted by the “outside world” that we neglect our “inner world”. If there was nothing outwardly to distract us, we would then FIND something to distract us…like playing with our electronic devices. When we have a moment when we are actually not moving, or doing anything, or talking to someone, what do we do? We get on our devices to play that game, look at Facebook and see what people are up to. Why do we do this and why has it become so difficult to just sit quietly?…because we live in a society that tells us that we need to be constantly doing, moving and producing. We must go, go, go. We are not taught to just sit quietly, with our thoughts and emotions…to take notice of what’s going on inside of us. In fact, for many people (myself included), this is initially very uncomfortable. 

A big part of evolving spiritually is to be able to sit quietly with oneself. This is not an impossibility…we just think it is. In fact, in today’s busy society, it is a necessity. It allows your mind to rest and your body to -rest-. After a while, you begin to realize that there really isn’t anything that is more pressing, more important, than sitting quietly with yourself. After all, YOU are the most important person in YOUR life!

There are so many people out there who are suffering from anxiety. I was one of them for years and our anxiety is heightened when we continue to push down those anxious feelings. One of the best ways to calm yourself is to sit with yourself and allow yourself to FEEL those anxious emotions. We are told to pop a Xanax, or go do something to distract yourself and by ignoring these feelings, they are again pushed back down only to resurface at a later time. In the meantime, our lives get busier, more pressure is put upon us and the anxiety builds up even more.

By sitting quietly and allowing those anxious thoughts and feelings to surface, we can then take a look at them and at least acknowledge that they are there. IT IS OK to have those feelings. In fact, what we resist, persists. When anxiety keeps resurfacing, it is the Universe’s way of telling us that we have not yet solved an issue within us. 

In the past, I have used alcohol, anti anxiety, anti depressants and many other “distractions” to avoid looking at those yucky feelings lying deep within me and although those distractions helped for the time being, it would ALWAYS resurface. These uncomfortable emotions lying deep within me were my “inner demons” and once I understood that they were not a threat, I could eventually allow myself to sit with them, look at them and see it’s origins. 

There are so many people who are hurting emotionally and we do everything and anything to NOT FEEL those emotions. Don’t deny yourself the crucial quiet time that we all need to decompress. You will feel so much better.

Meditation is not something that has to be learned, it is something that we all know how to do but have forgotten. When we find ourselves daydreaming or zoning out, it is a form of meditation. As we are falling asleep, we are letting our minds go and letting thoughts come in and eventually we fall asleep. Sitting quietly is just allowing ourselves to “be” in that moment. Letting those thoughts and feelings come…and not judging them or analyzing them. 

So to all my fellow anxious friends, it’s ok feel anxious at times. Allow yourself to feel these emotions without having the need to “get rid of it”. It is there for a reason…it’s a reminder to quiet down and spend some quality time with yourself so start spending time with a very important person…YOU!

I wish everyone healing, love and inner peace.





Meditation and your Thoughts



How can we manage our thoughts? How can we control our thoughts? All the Spiritual Masters have learned to control their minds, their thinking. I always used to think that controlling the mind or your thinking meant that when a thought popped into your head that you didn’t want, you had to push it away or force yourself to think about something else.

What the wisdom of the Spiritual Masters has taught me is that it’s not so much the controlling of one’s thoughts or keeping thoughts out as it is to just let the thoughts come as they will but  to not “follow” them. What this means is to not have a dialogue in your own mind about that particular thought. For example, if a thought pops in seemingly out of no where, just observe that particular thought…without judging it. This is difficult at first because until we come to understand the crazy process of thinking, we tend to judge our thoughts and ask ourselves why we are thinking that particular thought. 

Meditation is key in learning how to “not judge your thoughts”. With meditation, it is about letting those crazy thoughts come (they’re going to pop into your head regardless…) and just “looking at them” and letting them go. Ok…so how do you let them go? You do this by gently changing your focus. Whether you are using a mantra with meditation or you’re  focusing on your breath, it is just a matter of changing your focus from that thought that just popped into your head to going back to the mantra or breath watching. In the beginning of this meditation practice, you will have to keep doing this over and over again. Over time, the ability to stay focused on your breath, or mantra will last longer and longer and eventually, you will realize that the “gaps” in between focusing on your mantra or breathing gets bigger and bigger. Sometimes it’s really just a second or two but in those few moments (the gaps) are where the quiet stillness lies. In this space or gap, there is only awareness. It is the pure awareness that “notices”. It is the one that is observing the thoughts, the feelings, the events in your life. It is this awareness that is really who you really are. 

Eventually, you can apply this to all aspects of your life. You become aware of the “aware being” behind everything. You soon begin to realize that the “aware being”…or YOU is observing everything around you. You don’t have to get into the drama of what is going on around you or even within your own head! You can just be an observer that is observing without judging. 

After a while with mediation, you will notice that you feel calmer and more at peace with yourself. Somehow the things that used to bother you don’t seem to affect you anymore. Why does this happen? It happens because as you meditate, you begin to touch your deeper self. That deeper self is who you really are: pure awareness and pure spirit. Our thoughts and emotions are by products of being human and are a part of who we are but they are not at the CORE of who we are. We have our thoughts, emotions, opinions, perceptions that have been built over our lifetimes based on our past experiences but sitting at the very CORE…is who we really are…the OBSERVER. That observer is Spirit…observing all the other parts of you and once you’ve touched your core, you will realize that you are a free being that does not have to be a prisoner of your own thoughts or emotions.

Remember, how in the past blogs we’ve talked about how you are not your thoughts or emotions? You are so much more than that! Sitting in the center of you is pure spirit or pure awareness. 

When I first came upon this teaching, I could not quite grasp that concept until I started to meditate. Some people get to that space right away and seem to have a quicker understanding of how meditation works. They are able to almost immediately touch their core. I wasn’t one of those individuals. I had to keep trying many times because you see…my thoughts about it kept getting in the way. Ha! The very thing I was trying NOT to do! I kept trying to “think my way to the quiet space”. Well, because I was judging my thoughts and beating myself up over them, I was missing the whole point of just letting them come, then just letting them go. It takes practice but don’t give up! The peace and calm that you begin to feel (and radiate) is well worth the effort.




Walking through your pain


OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAOne of the scariest things for me to do in my Spiritual Journey has been to look at and face my fears. To look at all the pain that I carried and to try and understand them. I had to look at many of the incidences one by one and recall how it made me feel inside. This is the hard part: to face those fears and allow myself to feel them once again. 

It felt like I had spent most of my life trying to not feel them. I did everything I could to not feel those scary feelings. I would distract myself by getting busy with doing something else, or I would drink to feel numb. The difference with feeling the pain when you want to heal as opposed to having the memories/pain just resurface at random times is, that when you have made the decision to heal,  there is a knowing that you will be “Ok”. That the discomfort you are feeling at the time of remembering is only temporary. 

This is why all of us often have those uncomfortable moments keep resurfacing…either through a memory that keeps popping up or an experience that forces us to remember those feelings.  It is the Universe’s way of letting us know that we have not yet dealt with certain issues. When those moments arise, we have a choice, we can continue to push them aside as we’re often accustomed to doing or we can chose to really look at them and ask ourselves what we are supposed to learn from them.

People (including myself) who always have the same problems resurface over and over again are actually being gently reminded that there is an old wound that needs to be healed and by continuing to ignore them means that we are stifling our spiritual growth. The sooner we decide to address them, the sooner we are able to move on.

Our fear can not harm us. It is just a feeling and remember from these past blogs…we are not our feelings. We feel what we feel based on each of our past experiences and if we understand this, we know that we will be ok. 

My message to you all is to let you know that YOU ARE OK…IN FACT, YOU ARE WONDERFUL. I know in the beginning, it doesn’t feel that way but once you have decided to take a look at the things that are scary and painful, the degree of power which you think those emotions carry will soon reveal to you that they really have no power over you at all…you just THINK they do…and THAT gave it more power. Take back your power by deciding to heal. Only by doing this will you get your power back. In actuality, you never lost your power…you just gave it away.

I love my fellow spiritual beings and I see that we are all the same. We are all here trying to do the best we can with what we’ve been given…but we forgot who we truly are and because of this, we have built walls around us because we are afraid. We are afraid of our thoughts, our emotions and we are afraid of others. We have become afraid of others because we feel that they may see us as inadequate, or stupid or unworthy. We are all WONDERFUL.

Take that first step towards healing…then take the next one, and the next one…and as you do this, you will soon realize that you have walked through your pain. This is the healing process…

Love, “My Journey in Spirit”

Thought vibrations



Everything is a vibration, everything moves and nothing stands still. This being one of the Universal principals or laws of the Universe, I wanted to understand it further. Physicists today are seeing that when matter and atoms are broken down to its smaller form and broken down even further to it’s smallest form, it is no longer matter but an energy wave which vibrates. With our current scientific instruments, they are able to see that these energy vibrations are at the very core of all things. 

Even our thoughts and emotions are vibrations. We give off a certain vibration depending upon what our emotional state and thoughts are at the time. For example, have you ever met someone for the first time and walked away either shivering to yourself because you sensed that that person gave off “bad vibes?” Conversely, you sometimes meet someone and walk away telling yourself that you really liked that person’s vibes. That person, or that space that you were just in…felt good.

When someone is in a good mood and acts happy, they are vibrating at a high frequency. When they are down or depressed, they are in a low vibration. We all change our vibrations through out our day and our lifetimes and it is possible to “vibrate in a high frequency” consciously at every moment. This takes practice and a conscious awareness. 

We all have a choice from day to day, even from moment to moment to change our vibrations. (By changing our thoughts and perception) Despite what is going on around us, we can choose to either let those moments affect us negatively or not. By making a conscious shift in our awareness, we can change our vibratory state from low to high at any time.

For example, you get out of bed in the morning and you stub your toe on the way to the bathroom. You swear loudly and go about your business. You go to the kitchen to make yourself a cup of coffee and you spill coffee on your white shirt. Crap! You change your shirt and now it’s time to head out the door but then you can’t find your car keys. For some reason, they are not in the same place that you normally leave them. Now you’re upset and swearing out loud…to no one in particular but it feels better to swear and complain out loud. (It doesn’t seem to help you to find your car keys though). Now you’ve told yourself that this is going to be “one of those days”. One of those days where nothing goes right. Well guess what? With that way of thinking, chances are you are right. The day probably won’t get better. Why does this happen?

It happens this way because we have already “set the tone”, or set the vibration at which we will emit during that moment. So when something negative happens, we can learn to stop the low vibration or the negative thought by telling ourselves that sometimes, “shit just happens”. Yes, we know this to be true but in any given moment, we can choose to get into the emotional drama and get upset or, we can look at the situation as something that just happened and get on with it. No need to label it as a bad thing. At the very least, when we do this, we do not lower our vibration by thinking that that particular moment was “bad”. It was just something that happened.

There are some people who seem to be chronically negative. You know the ones, they are always complaining about how life sucks. Everything sucks and nothing right ever happens to them. They have “set the tone” along time ago. They have consciously decided that nothing in their lives seem to work out right…and it probably doesn’t.

They can change their vibration at any time by changing our thought(s). We change our thoughts by changing our perception. Our perception about any given situation is based on our past experiences that we may have had. We can change our perception by realizing that there really isn’t any meaning behind any negative, or even positive event. They are just things that happen in our everyday lives. It is each of us who add meaning to everything. It isn’t good or bad but neutral. The power of our minds and our thoughts dictate to us whether each event or circumstance will affect us negatively or positively and we “vibrate” according to what we perceive in that moment.

We can chose to vibrate in a high frequency consciously by telling ourselves that we will not let events, circumstances or other people affect us. We can chose to be happy in any circumstance. This is spiritual awakening…so let’s change our thinking and our perception about things and get on with life! No need to let moments affect you in a negative way. They are just moments…but you chose how you want to vibrate!